Pinch Me!!

I am having the most difficult time comprehending that I'm actually leaving for China next week. That I will actually be holding my daughter in 10 days! It has been more difficult than I thought to go from "dreaming" of this adoption to it actually happening! It has been so long since I made a similar trip to bring Collin home (almost 8 years now). I'm guessing that I felt like this then, but I just don't remember. I feel like I need to be pinched to know that this is now reality -- no longer a dream!