Mother's Day (I miss my mom)

I had a really nice mother's day today. It started out kind of funny, with Collin coming in and waking me up (he never does this). He was sweet and said "Happy Mother's Day" and "I Love You" and gave me a hug. Then he told me that daddy had put cream cheese on his bagel and could he have another one (he wanted it plain). I should have known! Later in the day I treated myself to a shopping trip without any children! It was great. I was in and out of the dressing room 4 times and just browsed to my heart's content. I ended up purchasing several new outfits for my trip to China. We went to The Cheesecake Factory for dinner. I had a salad and then we all split this enormous piece of chocolate cake with layers of cheesecake, brownies, coconut-pecan filling and fudge. It was sooooo good. I'm starting my diet tomorrow to attempt to lose some weight before my trip! We also had a really nice visit with my dad and Marilyn and Marilyn's sister Nancy. It was truly a very nice day.



Even though we had such a great day, I still felt kind of down. As I was driving to the store to go shopping I just started crying and couldn't stop. I miss my mom so much, but especially today. It has been almost two years since she lost her battle with cancer and some days the wounds are still so fresh. As I'm getting closer to having a daughter of my own, I think about my mom and how special our time together was. I wish she could be here to meet her granddaughter. My mother provided such unconditional love and support and I hope my children know that I will always do the same for them.